blogger is weird theres like chinese characters... what the fuck is up with that... i cant even read where to type in the user name and shit. ok on the the main topic its been 4 days since Esther left for Australia. i hate the country, anyway, my point is i have kinda lost most of my reason to smile coz well theres nothing really happening now that shes gone... i realize i've let my world centre around her for so long that i've neglected my friends and so 1 by 1 im losing them.

i mean its not like a while ago where i couldnt live without my friends and and all but i guess its kinda saddening... oh well, ima take a look at why i havent been hanging with them...

Andrea is busy with the boyfriend and work and when shes free im not and vice versa. i just met up with mel and norman and i realize how weird its become its like we are still gd friends but somehow things are different. we're no longer like close close. so many things have happened. gene and audra..norman getting fitter.. well somethings never change... kav is still uncontactable haha.

oh and my friend of 10 years just went into DB. for those of you who dont know thats detention barracks. apparently life in there is hell and they have to do stupid things like carry a sandbag and squat in the hot sun for 3 hrs. so yeah my friend was sentenced to 4 months for being awol. is that crazy shit or what man? yes its crazy shit. so yeah according to friends hes gonna come out fitter than an a cup on kavin. well thats like really fit considering hes like at the very least a c. haha i kid. i havent seen him.. supposed to but oh what the hell huh?

so anyways my turn for the army will be comin soon march 11 wow. thats like in a few weeks. crazy bidness.. im a little worried coz i think my body's pretty beat up from the late nights ive been spending on my com and the alcohol ive been drinking.. oh i didnt write about the time i puked 30 times and nearly died. well that happened less than a month ago.. drank so much cheapo alcohol at the fucked up place in mohd sultan... its not funny. so yeah lay in my toilet puking for like 2 hours.. sounds like i cant drink? well you go try some fucking glenn stag its like a complete rip off from glenfiddich. and some weird bourbon i dont even remember.. but it was fucked up. so yeah pretty much whats been happening.. i also realize i have touched drugs for more than a year now.. i guess ima keep it that way.. keepin things real i suppose.

well its sunday and i have to go to church which i really really really feel too lazy to do. coz i didnt sleep playing some dumb game last night. damn i should stop doing this... ok bye!